How odd life is. It seems that when I feel most sure of what my life is doing, where I'm headed, that
everything becomes totally stagnant, and I end up not going anywhere. Then, when I am most
unsure of what to do, where to go,
which direction to head,
everything seems to happen all at once, and in a direction I hadn't even thought about.
I am becoming less and less sure of
anything at all.
I keep fucking up, and somehow,
the person I fucked up with manages to
keep my head above water.
What now do I do?
Fuck me, life is confusing.
Thank God for this little
nook of sanity. Even at its worst,
E2 is at least a place to vent and
spill my guts, providing that
dannye won't nuke me. (sigh)
Not that I don't tend to have it coming.
It turns out also that I won't get to go to the party on the 5th that I've been looking forward to for so long now. My grandmother died. No big deal, really- I haven't seen her since I was ten, but I still have to go to the funeral. Not nearly as fun as drunken debauchery with a number of my favorite noders. So it goes.