I am baffled as to why so many of the great guys that I know do not have
girlfriends. This includes
Kit Lo and
my friend Chris and another
E2er who shall not be named. My guess is that perhaps it's for the same reason that I have few
girl friends:
interesting women are hard to come by,
uppity women are out in favor of
patriarchally
submissive women who believe they are
liberated because they have
careers and
sleep around.
I wonder if there is a word for the feeling of a
love missed, for someone you could have/nearly fell
in love with? If there is I suspect it's
French, like
l'esprit d'escalier.
What I did today was have my
yard sale. I sold
$100 of
stuff, which was good, but not good because I also got a
message from the
Mayflower agent, who said it's going to cost $3000 to move the contents of my 2-bedroom
apartment. Ouch! And I spent part of the day with
Chris, which was great but didn't make up for not having my
SO here. (My
nickname for him is
Kai, so that's what I'm going to use from now on. :p)
Speaking of whom, I bought that
journal today. It's by
Flavia and has a beautiful
Pre-Raphaelite painting on the cover. I hope I can fill it well.
Selling things and packing things stirs up
old memories. My
gaming stuff,
teddy bears,
art supplies, the old wax
bamboo parasol I've had since
forever. And my
seventh grade GT teacher showed up, too. It was interesting to talk to her, and tell her about
Stanford and all. With all that and Chris, it was quite the
memory lane day.
Still no
rainbow.