Disclaimer:
Beware, very sappy,
emotional writing will follow, for those of you not in
touch with this, I'm
sorry, move on
now.
We all get to that
point in our
lives where its
time to reassess our
goals. I have 14 days of
classes left and then I'm a
college graduate, so if the
time hasn't already passed then it sure has come.
So I ask myself "What do I want from
life?"
The
answer comes as quickly as it always has. Never do I
hesitate, nothing has been
added or
removed in longer than I can
remember. Everything else I could ever want, need, or have pales in
comparison. But today, 2:15 in the morning, after a completely uneventful
day, the details suddenly
strike me
head on. I had to get out of
bed and to this
computer to get it out (so beware of my
ramblings).
As always the
answer is, was, and will be that I want a
family and always attached to that, even though I
hate that it has to be a thought, is that I want to be able to support this
family in a
life style equal or better to what I've had.
This isn't
too much to ask for, is it? It’s
funny that I only know
one other
person who shares this
goal.
People awash in their
monetary goals and wants to
travel and on and on. Don't get me
wrong, I'd love to have all the things that everyone strives for, but it all comes in a far
second to this.
To me this has always seemed like a very
vague and foggy
goal to strive for, but as I was lying in
bed and the
vale of mist was lifted from my
eyes. What's coming next is going to sound like the most sappy, disgusting,
ridiculous crap ever, but let me tell you, its 100% the
truth for better of worse from anyone’s
point of view.
And here it is: I was about to list for you the qualities of the
wife and
family that have become
clear to me, but these are just my opinions and you can form your own. Lets set aside the
attractive (to me not to
society),
funny, able to always talk to, tell the
truth to, speak your
mind to, blah, blah, blah, stuff and get
right down to what you (not just me, don't kid yourself) really need. Everyone needs some one they can
cry with. I can't think of anything that is a better
sign of how close you are with someone.
First off,
FUCK men don't cry. The most moving, powerful thing I have ever seen was my
Father and
Uncle crying. Nothing compares to that. Second,
crying is a
wonderful thing. It, laughing and
extreme physical exertion are the three best
stress reliefs in the
world. Also, there is nothing better to show how you are feeling.
As I read back through this I
- can't believe I just wrote this.
- refuse to change one word of it.
- can just think about how this will be taken by you the reader.
- notice the number of spelling errors I have to fix.
- hope some of you feel the same way I do.
- wonder why I didn't just type this for myself; locally.
- wonder, ultimately, what I'm going to do about all this.
Good night all and I hope that you all get what you want from
life.