My boyfriends friend died the other day, and I didn't know how to react. I was of course shocked and at the same time i felt very out of place. I knew this friend very briefly yet I was so overwhelmed with a feeling of helpless agony that until today felt completely out of line.
I now realize that my feelings of grief and pain weren't all for the diseased but also because I found something i couldn't make better. A time when I couldn't take away the pain. Today I discovered being in love feels so different from just loving.