Well, I may have made a
complete ass out of myself tonight when my companion of about 5 months now asked me where I thought our relationship was going. Lord knows
being honest has usually hurt me more than helped me. I admitted that I had been rather pragmatic in terms of my emotions because I knew he plans to go to school in
Prescott, AZ and I have absolutely no desire to follow him there. Don't get me wrong, I care for him a great deal...I just won't give up
Los Angeles for Prescott.
I also talked about how I felt it was important that two people have their separate lives, apart from the life they have togehter. How falling in love doesn't have to be a bolt of lighting. It can be like the gradual swell of a wave, slowly building up before at long last it crashes.
I admitted that I hadn't said "I love you" because in my heart I knew that saying goodbye to him would be so much harder if I did.
Of course, just because I don't say it...
This should definately make the week more eventful than planned. *sigh* What I wouldn't give for a normal love life.