Have you ever repeated a word several times in your head, and then realised that it doesnt seem right? Or maybe You've been watching something happen to someone else, and just been hit by how strange and
bizarre it looks? Well youve just seen part of the
real world, where things arent
normal just because they exist.. Where
people arent behaving normally just because they behave like everyone else.. Where the distinction between
normality, and
reality is
clear and defined. This is the world of
Ketamine, or
Donkey Dust, as its sometimes known.
Ketamine is a powerfull
tranquilizer, which was used by the
Americans(Is there ANY drug they wont test on there own citizens?) on soldiers during the
korean and
vietnam wars. Up until recently it was used on
humans in small amounts, but that practice has stopped in the
UK, with
Ketamine being used entirely on
horses. This also led to its legalisation as a
prescription drug, even though it is no longer
prescribed to humans.
There is an enormous amount of ill educated nonsense spoken about
K, so Im going to set the record straight. In small amounts
K produces a
tranquilizing effect, providing
unlimited energy, and almost no feeling of pain at all. Any other effects are provided by the person taking the
drugs mental state, as with any drug... In large amounts ketamine can only be described as
bizarre, taking everything that seemed normal before, and just making it seem wierd. Allthough
hallucinations can occasionally be seen,
ketamine is not a
hallucinogen, and the
hallucinations you see are produced by your
brain trying to make
objects seem
normal by
re-associating them to
different meanings. This obviously leads to a state of
confusion and some extremely
strange visuals.
What follows is how I saw my first night on
Ketamine, which I know is distorted a little, but hey, thats
Special K for ya..
Ok, so Im sitting in a fantastic
squat party in
hackney wick, which is in north east
London, and my friend offers me some
Ketamine, and gives me a wrap full of it. So, I have a good start to the night, I have a
pill, I dance around a lot to some wicked
TranceCore, and some
acid techno, and then I decide its time to try the
Ketamine. I know most of the guys organising this
party, so I take all the people I came with into the back of the
cloakroom to get some peace and quiet, and a nice
flat surface
I cut up six small lines, because Id allready been told that small lines were just fun at
parties, and I give one to everyone.. I didnt even
notice anything till I tried to
dance again, and I realised I was just waving my arms round everywhere. It was like not having a
body, and just floating round inside my
brain,
watching,
detached from what was happening, but it was
controllable, and nice, making me feel
warm and
protected.
The effects wore off after about two hours, so I did another line, and so on for another four lines, until about 10am on sunday, when I stopped so Id have some left when I got home. When we finally got home around 8PM on sunday I had enough left for about eight small lines, but my friend James
whips out two more
wraps and suggests some serious lines of K, and who am I to argue?
So me and James set about cutting up five huge lines of
K, using two and a half full wraps(Two and a bit grammes, ish). And without a thought for what it could do in these amounts, I snorted it all. Now, everyone generally heads back to my house after a
party, and sits around
listening to music and
watching movies, so we all sat in the
living room, and I got the living room
PC playing some
MP3s. But shortly after we take the K, the playlist ends, and I have to put more on. So I connect to my
pc upstairs, and start copying some across to listen to. Then, completely out of the blue, I spin round quickly, and everything just spins out of control, like Im incredibly dizzy. I assume its just tiredness, and carry on with the mp3s, until the
windows start resizing themselves depending on where my head is positioned, and I realise I can no longer understand anyone.
Now I was getting a little freaked out by now, nobody had told me what it did, but this definately wasnt right, because it was so odd. Of course, after Id finished the K, I realised that this was right, the whole point of the drugs is to seperate you from reality, and show it you in its raw, unaltered state. A door is a door normally, but on K, its a piece of wood thats been jammed into a hole in your wall, no
pre-conceptions about what this piece of
wood could be are involved, its just a
piece of wood..
So after about five minutes I make a move, and go for a wander round the
house, with my
limbs completely
weightless, and my
head swaying side to side. The first thing I see is the
backdoor, and it looks completely
fucked up and
stupid, so I avoid that, and go to look upstairs, where I find my
PC playing some
psy trance, and some
visualizations, which just completely blow my mind, and make me collapse on the
bed,
mesmerized with the screen. That only lasted about ten minutes then I got bored of it, so I move back downstairs, realising that I can understand people now(There all as fucked as me), so I start talking about things. And within ten minutes Ive thought about two
majorly fucked horrible things that have happened to me in the past, and completely resolved any issues I may have had with them. After Id finished with the K, the affects of all that deep thinking stayed behind, and I
experienced some
immense amounts of
inner peace and
happiness.
I also
remember taking a step back from the
world and just realising how
rediculous a lot of things were.. I wont go into them, you have to see them on K really to notice them. I will however give you this
quote from the
fantastic Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy by
Douglas Adams, which sums up what I saw...
"Most
humans spend there entire lives
exchanging small pieces of paper in search of
eternal happiness. They think
digital watches are cool, but even the humans with digital watches arent happy"
And on that note, Ill let you continue living in
normality, letting you believe that what you see is normal. But if you want to see things for real, do yourself a
favour and take some
Ketamine, then You'll see, life is
rediculous, its all
complete and utter nonsense.
"
Perception distorts reality. Perception helps makes your
reality. If you want to see things clearly you need to
seperate from
yourself, and look through clear
eyes."