A couple months back I became
homeless. I was living at
adoxograph's house for about a week and a half. It was an ok time for me really. I was
bouncing all over,
suburbs to
city to
suburbs. I was
awaiting the drawing up of my
lease for my new apartment and the beginning of the
summer semester at
my shitty school. It was a good
experience, being homeless. I learned a lot about
adoxograph,
beer, and
math. I was
reentered into my
age-old psychotic interest in books. I was slightly changed in a
manner that served as a
correction in the rebuilding of myself after the
Summer of 1999. Below is the note that I made when I realized that
I had lost interest in Everything (for an
undetermined time). It is slightly
edited from the original, but I assure you it is as carefully
worded (although it may not seem so) as the
original.
Well, it seems I'm taking something of an Everything Vacation. Permanent or not, I don't know. But dammit, you know, motherfucker. So much bullshit, and you know. Fuck (See also: This is my 666th node, coming at you straight from the fiery depths of Hell). You know, when I came to Everything, it was...argh. I loved this place so much and now, -sigh-. Anyways, after a week of homelessness and a month of moving, and a situation preventing me from having Internet access at all (fucking cable company whores), and an seemingly endless job search, and hours and hours of bookstore sitting, and almost a bit too much time at Usagi, blind_monkey, and adoxograph's houses, I don't really feel like much of anything. I'm sure you can understand. So now I just search for a job to pay for the phone, the electric, the gas, the ghost Internet access.
This is me normally.
This is me lately.
So, at this time I don't say "I shall node again no more forever," but instead I'll just say I'm taking a break, like my little buddy flamingweasel, who inspired me to make this note of excuse.
Thanks for listening...
I got a job. After that, my world
brightened up quite a bit, especially with the ending of the summer
semester. Soon after I got the job, I started noticing myself becoming interested in
the fine art of conversation, much like I had been years ago. I don't think I can really
emphasize here the
magnitude of such a thing and its
effects on my life.
My interest in
conversation spawned my new
obsession and
art project, which I am
regretfully not at liberty to
discuss right now. The renewed interest also revived some of my
lacking social skills (if they can even be called skills), allowing me to once again talk to someone interestingly, and not really need anything to
say while doing so.
And what else? It made me like
Everything once again. I dropped my interest in the
Voting/Experience System for real. I started really dropping my head into the nodes I was once again making. I like this place again, and I
couldn't give two shits that I have
300 more writeups every day (because my nodes are being
syphoned away as I sleep) to
Level 9. I feel some kind of
purpose to this site again, and I know now that Everything is what you make of it.
Seriously. It sounds
stupid, but it's
true.
Why do I node this note? I'm taking it off
my home node.
I'm writing again. I feel a bit
re-energized,
stupid as it may sound.
Hell, I even made a new
home node picture this week. So
WHY WHY WHY!!!!!
?
I'm back.
You have been warned.
Let the sarcasm live again.