Today an old friend of mine instant messaged me. It was weird because I had not talked to her in a long time. I suppose it wasn't a bad idea to talk to her. I had admired her for the longest time. Then we had an arguement and we didnt talk to one another for a while.
We didnt say much, just hello. Atleast its a start, I would not mind having her as a friend again.
On the other side, I went home today to visit my mother and sisters. I could have cared less about my father. I've given up on all attempts to bond with him. There is no hope for him or I ever having that father/son relationship. I make do with what I have now.
My mind is dead....I have no inspiration, no creativity, and almost no reason to live.
On the lighter side..... my new monitor came in. 17" viewsonic A70 WooHoo