I am
mulling over my
deepest desire(s). I mean, what are they? I like my
day job, but don't know where I want my
career to go. I have a lot of
possibilities in mind, but none
motivate me, not quite
yet.
I guess that I am still enjoying life after divorce, this new-found experience where life is not full of daily crises. I can sleep the whole night through. I do not dread coming home from work. It is still wonderful.
However, (and this is a good thing), all of this is starting to feel normal rather than a continual surprise. And thoughts of the future are starting to creep into my consciousness. The thought that I am only 31, I can still do something great with my life..
What a contrast, because only one year ago, I was still thinking is this all life has to offer? and what a stupid mistake I have made. (Although I thought this a lot, for some reason, the thought was most common when driving down the road or taking out the garbage).
I am not yet beyond the fear that I could make the same mistake twice. But I am to the point where I could see myself getting beyond that fear someday.
So, I think that I will be satisfied with recent developments, and be patient with myself.