I have demon
s whispering constantly in my mind
Even this morning as I ironed my shirt for work I was fighting them, I know what's right for me and what's not, and it's because of this knowledge
that I find it SOOoo very hard not to do what I want to do.
I keep telling myself to wait - wait and it will be over in a while, they'll be gone, and I'll find my inner peace
again. That is ofcourse till the next time they decide to pay my head a little visit.
I hate it when they fuck with me...
I hate being confused
I hate not being able to share
my thoughts and feelings with anyone.
I hate feeling lonely
when I'm surrounded by people.
I hate crying
I hate feeling empty
when I have been blessed with more than most people dream about.
Most of all I hate the self pitying tears welling up in my eyes...