samhain ritual, 2001, West Lafayette, In
ritual format
- meet at central location, walk up in silence, by battery-candles (for safety) to the grove in the forest, take places around circle.
- Hearken now, the Darkness comes read by priestess
- priest sweeps outside circle, priestess inside, elementals around edge, to purify and create sacred space. Chant Witches weave is sung.
- priest draws circle with sword, priestess with cornmeal, starting across circle from each other
- elemental callers invoke elements, air fire water earth, and draw and weave circle, then god and goddess are invoked, creating the sought-for "place that is not a place, time that is not a time".
- participants are welcomed to the circle and Samhain is explained for all who are less familiar
- the story of the mystery of the apple is told. We all come from the GoddessHoof and horn is sung.
- storytelling, whether giving thanks, letting go of a part of the past, remembering one who has passed away (usually in the past year, but can be anytime), etc. This process is for renewal and healing. After each story, the teller cuts a bit off the maypole, woven six months ago, as a turning of the wheel.
- Legend of the pomegranate is told; this, with apple from earlier, are passed for all to partake of.
- Elements are released and circle closed.
- Exchange of hugs and Blessed Be.
personal perspective
I'm really nervous. I'm calling elemental
fire, which is my natural
affinity, so the process is not highly difficult. I'm in
fire garb, a red, grey, black sweater and black pants. Different times of year i have different
fire properties... this one, it's more of the
smoke and
ember than the bright blazing
balefires of six months ago. My face is painted in these
colors, plus a few yellows and oranges, and i wear a crown of fall flowers. I'm ready, i took a cleansing
shower and prepared my tools. But i'm still nervous, because of the fact that this is the second ritual i've ever
called in, and the first "powerful" one, though, makes me
jittery.
Samhain was my first group ritual
ever last year, and this year i'm a part of it.
I'm also terriby nervous because of the
people.
Mcc is there to watch me... so is my best friend from
high school, who was the reason i first "got into
wicca" (in a terribly
unhealthy way that we both now regret) and now i'm in the odd place of being the more
spiritual with her coming to me for
guidance. She's normally at
Yale, but got so tired of the mental deadness there that she let me
kidnap her for the weekend. And the priestess is a very
dear friend of mine and the woman who
handfasted mcc and me, and i'm terrified of letitng her
down.
It's a beautiful night, though... nearly full
moon lending a beautiful silver shene to the
ground, and crisp fall leaves underneath our feet. I'm the
last in line processing, to make sure everyone makes it up
safe. I try not to trip over roots, my way lit by the lights ahead of me, and my small
lantern holding a
glowstick--it's a
candle lantern, but fire was prohibited in the park.
Everyone's in place, the beauty of the
grove amazing, and the ritual starts. I go through everything as
planned, trying both to remember my part, and drink it in at the same time. And suddenly it's
my turn.
Hail to the South
Elemental Fire
I welcome you to our circle this Samhain night
I summon and stir you to aid in our ritual
Weave your essence throughout this gathering
Protect this circle with searing tongues of fire
Ever vigilant, burning to ash all that would try to harm us tonight
Warm us with the courage to speak freely, knowing we are safe and loved.
We are weaving a circle of defending flames!
Welcome Elemental Fire!
And fire's there. Fire's really there, energywise, on its elemental
tree right where it's supposed to be. It worked. It actually bloody worked. I acutally pulled that off.... WOW!
The circle is called, and things progress. I stand mostly
basking. And then the
stories.
People lay to rest all sorts of things, and
people. I do what i can, as
fire, to lend them courage to speak if they so desire. And most do. And then i choose to as well.
I let two dead pass... one human, and one year.
This is finally my chance to say goodbye to
Hermetic. I never knew him as well as
some here, but i believe through his words i did
know him. He greeted me
cheerily in #e always, and we had some amazing
chats. And the words he left here showed me who he was inside. I was not close friends with him, but as a part of this
community, this
family, i knew him and in my own way i
loved him. I never really came to
terms with his death, properly. As i started to
parse what happened, i found my mourning cut
short by a tragedy of far
greater scale the next day. I spent so long wrapped up in that that i never really got around to finishing
grieving for him and beginning to
heal. I did last night... and all who were there last night hear me wish him, as so many others here have said,
godspeed.
I also laid to rest the past year. It's been full of more pain, more grief, and more learning, than any year ever has. Some of its stories you know. Some haven't beeen told yet. Some never will be. I nearly had a
nervous breakdown, quite literally. I developed
chronic, chronic insomnia which led to me failing
all my classes and leaving me in a
dangerous situation academically now. Most of my
friends, or so i thought,
betrayed me during this time--but at least i found out who was really
true. It was full of more pain and hurt... the one i cared about most in th world, and who cared most about me was hours and hours away. He stood with me in circle last year, my beloved
mcc did, but the next day he got on a plane back to
texas. This is how things were... we were sure of A
future together... just not sure
how. But last night he stood
across the circle from me, and is still here today, and will be here for as many
tomorrows as we can imagine. I needed to learn the lessons i did the past year, and i believe i have. I keep the
lessons now, but last night i released the
pain.
The circle continued, mostly just a
rush of power and emotion, both my own and others... and finally it was
done, almost. And
air was left, and it was again my turn.
Hail to the South
Elemental Fire
I thank you for your presence and protection tonight
Take our love and thanks with you wherever firelight shines
Come as you will, stay as you wish
You are always welcome among us
As always, for the good of all with harm towards none,
So mote it be
Farewell Elemental Fire!
And we descended again down to the
cars and the lights and the
warm.
What happened after that, at a
party not related to the
ritual but involving the people from it spending time together after it is another story ENTIRELY and will be noded probably
tomorrow. It's a fun story, but has no part in
samhain itself.
When it's done, it'll be linked here.
This morning, when i awoke (for the second time), i had a
thought though, a gut
feeling. I... i believe that next
samhain it very well may be me standing in the center of that grove, standing
priestess... i don't know why i think this. I know i will follow a
priestess path at some point in my life--and i know i can have at least a
first degree ordination by next year--but i didn't expect this so soon. It may come to pass, it may not. It may just be a call to start the priestess-path sooner. Only time will tell.